I’m lying in bed but I can’t sleep. I’ve got too much on my mind.

I’ve taken a lot of time to myself this week. Even though I wasn’t really upset about my break up with Anthony, it took a lot out of me. I had a lot of unresolved feelings for Anthony to sort through, but I think I finally settled them all in the friend category. If only I could say the same for my feelings for Dean.

Dean… I feel like he’s avoiding me, and I don’t know why. I’m terrified I scared him off the other day, but I was so certain he was feeling something in the moment as well. I want to go to dinner with him tomorrow so we can try to settle things. Almost an opportunity to show all our cards so we know where the other stands. For all I know, he’s actually secretly involved with the mystery woman with red hair I thought might be Zara.

It feels like just yesterday I thought I was about to be engaged to Diego. I can only imagine how it felt to Dean to have a broken engagement. Of course, he’s never actually told me why his engagement was broken. Maybe he did the breaking and his heart wasn’t quite as wounded as mine was.

Turning over on my side, I take a deep breath and close my eyes. I finally got through the mess left behind in my office and discovered that all my files on Egypt were gone. I’m trying not to think it has anything to do with Melinda’s mysterious reappearance. I don’t know if I can emotionally handle another big surprise right now. I’m trying to focus on the fact that I had extra copies of my Egypt notes in my flat, not that this is the second time they’ve been stolen.

Tomorrow will hopefully bring answers to so many of the questions that are keeping me awake. If nothing else, I’ll have talked to Dean and have a better idea what he’s feeling.